This is where it always starts. There is always a beginning. The interesting part here is that our beginning originally started out as an ending…
“I got laid off.”
Um, what? Did I hear that correctly?
Yes, yes I did.
In one brief moment, the life that my husband and I created had changed.
But let me go back and catch you up.
We were the couple that followed the “How to Grow Up” manual. We met in college, were engaged and married by 24, and started off on the path of the “perfect” life. We had our first child at 26, my husband received his MBA from USC by 28 and before we hit 30, he was well on his way to a promising career at one of the most well known investment management companies while I would soon make the decision to stay home with our three children. We bought our dream home, our children attended private Catholic school and we looked as though everything was just as it was suppose to be. The reality though, was that in many ways it was not.
With my husband’s job there came a demanding way of life. Constant traveling for him led to a lot of long hours, stress and often this would come home. On my side, I was not always supportive, holding resentment for how little he was around and that I had given up my career so he could have his. Because of his financial success at such a young age, we were also welcomed into a world of fundraisers, galas, travel and lifestyle that, at the time, had all the glitz and glamour one would expect and we jumped right in. Suddenly, he was the successful husband and I was the Stepford wife and we were both becoming miserable, trying to keep up with a world that was just not us.
And then, he was fired. And in one quick moment, instead of feeling scared and afraid, I was given a sense of peace that finally, we were free.
With only three simple words, the handcuffs were broken off and I felt that I could breathe again.
We didn’t have to live this life. We could make better decisions. We could start over. We could be a better version of ourselves for each other and our children. It is in that moment, our new beginning began.
So here we are.
Turning the page and beginning a new chapter in our life. We are leaving Orange County, a place I have always called home. We are leaving to live our dream. A dream we have had for years but our past life never allowed for it. We are moving to Santa Ynez, a place that has brought such peace into our life over the years. It has been the place we always said we would live…one day…and now that one day is today.
So I welcome you on this journey with us. I love to write and have always felt a calling to share with others. I tend to be an open book. So I have opened up This Little Country Road as a space to share this transition as we attempt to start over, focus on what is important, grow in our faith and share this special place we love with all of you. My hope is to write each week on the transition, the places we visit (from the food to the shops, the wineries and the hidden gems), the moments we struggle, the joy we find and what we learn about ourselves and our family.
This is our book. And it starts as they always do….
In the beginning…